WHAT NOW? What the hell is wrong with this people? Don they understand English or are they just not humans but animals. I can’t take anything more in my life. I’ve lost hope in my class, next? Am I supposed to lose my dad and my future? Why can’t life be much simpler and less complicated? I just wished that I wasn’t in this world needing to face all these problems.

I just can’t understand humans. Are they animals with no feelings? My dad is admitted in the hospital and my mum is yet able to just sit and worry about her gold! My class is never going to change in their life. What is there to lose for them? Nothing! I just wished that they were in my shoes to know what I am going through. I just can’t explain it out. Firstly, I have a family who cares for no one except their own life. Secondly, I have a “good” class friends who are just not allowing anyone to study and think that everyone is so “lucky” as them to get through everything very simply. Thirdly, I am so worried if I would be able to make where I want to go – which is NP (Business school). A damn 10 to 13 points is needed for that. What am I going to do? I don’t know!

I am just going to leave this in God’s hand as he is planning my life! If he is testing me in faith, so be it! I believe him, and I will always. He knows what he is doing!